Happiness

I have a little girl that I teach that I think is precious. She comes in EVERY day smiling and leaves EVERY day smiling. She has a bounce in her step when she walks. She thinks I am the greatest. She has become my "side kick" according to many teachers because she is with me a lot. She is a hard worker and is just pleasant to be around. Her innocence is refreshing. She has struggles but at this point, she doesn't know it.



Secretly, I wish I was like that! I wished I was happy all of the time. I wished I had a bounce in my step and an innocence that was so appealing. I was thinking about this and then I realized that I should be that way. Christ came to this Earth and died for me! Why am I not that happy. Why do I not tell everyone how great my "Teacher" is? Perhaps, if I felt that way about my "Teacher", I would be that happy. So, I am going to strive to have my student's outlook on life! I will bet that I will be that happy, too!

Evolution of Dance

My friend, Jeni, posted this to her website. I thought it was so funny that I would post it on mine. I needed a lighter post! Hope you enjoy it. My favorites from my childhood were 1).Vanilla Ice (I use to do gymnastics routines to it!)
2). The Brady song. Yeah, real sad that I use to know that whole routine.
3). Michael Jackson- I till have the record. Boy, that sounds old!

So, which one brings back good or bad memories for you?

Every Saturday

As you know, it was 2 weeks ago today (Saturday) that I received a phone call that a dear friend of mine had passed away at the age of 33. This has been a difficult situation. It is case like this that we have to have faith that God knows best and that He is the ultimate authority in our lives. I know all of this to be true, but still occurrences like this take a part of your security and comfort. It makes you realize that we are only here temporarily and that this world is not our home. It makes us realize even more that we do not think in God's time.

As I was driving somewhere the other day, I heard a christian song I had never heard. I listen to this genre almost exclusively and had never heard this song. I assumed it was a new release. No, it isn't but the timing for me could not have been better. I have clung to the words of this song since the day I heard it. I have posted a link to hear it, but I am including the words.

As I read the words, I am reminded on many times in my life I was barely hanging on and felt so empty. During those times, I had to know that God was in control and believe in Him. I hope you all can get something from this song, as well. I am sure we all have had times that we were trying to "figure God out". I am also sure we have had times where we blamed God for our pain or question Him. This song sums up some of those thoughts for me. I hope you enjoy.

Every Saturday by Seventh Day Slumber


Saturdays have never been the same
And I still can't believe you're gone
So many things I wish that I could say
I guess the hardest part of moving on
Are these memories that have overtaken me
Once again I'm right here on my knees

I'm barely hanging on
With all these empty feelings
I'm hurting in so many ways
And though I can't begin to understand the reason
I still believe that you're GOD

Saturdays have never been the same
That moment keeps repeating in my mind
The ringing phone
A call that changed my world
An emptiness that words cannot define
All these memories have overtaken me
So once again I fall upon my knees

And as you cried I cried with you
I'll never leave
I'll carry you through
Can't you see that I was always there?
These ashes of pain will fade

I'm barely hanging on
With all these empty feelings
I'm hurting in so many ways
And though I can't begin to understand the reason
I still believe that you're GOD
I'm barely hanging on
With all these empty feelings
I'm hurting in so many ways
And though I can't begin to understand the reason
I still believe that you're GOD


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xqz3XYGQHwY- Here is the link to the song if you want to hear it.

I was tagged by Rebecca.

The Rules: Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
Share 5 random and/or weird facts about yourself on your blog.or
Share the 5 top places on your “want to see or want to see again” list.or
Share 5 things you never pictured being in your future when your were 25 years old.Tag a minimum of 5, maximum of 10 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.The tagees have a choice of which they want to do.

I will share 5 random facts about myself:
1). As of today, I am a deacon's wife. (Brad will be a deacon over the youth at church.) I think that means we are old!
2). I love the show The Hills. Yes, that is a teenager show but it is like high school days gone bad!
3). I want to learn sign language and plan to do that some day.
4). I am very afraid of snakes.
5). I am a worrier. I worry about far too many things. One of my resolutions is not not worry so much. I have always tried to think out the scenarios. I have come to realize in the last year, that is impossible. Leave it up to God!

There you have it. It is not too exciting. Perhaps I could add number six, my life is pretty boring!:)

I am tagging: Franklin, Tracy, Becky, and Jeni. Everyone else has already been tagged.

The baby

I know you are all wondering. No, we are not expecting a baby. This is something that is so heart wrenching, yet so comforting at the same time. As I mentioned, I was very close to my friend, Evette (the one that passed away). I have not mentioned that I had become close to all of her family because Brad played on their family volleyball team the last 2 years at church. We laughed so much together. Her sister was a labor and deliver nurse for many years. When we had our miscarriage she was an important person to us. Yesterday, as I made my way down the line to speak to all of the family and give Evette my final goodbye, I came to Evonne first. As we embraced and cried, she pulled away from me and this is what she told me, " I hope this doesn't make you mad, but I am going to say it anyway. Evette is rocking your baby for you!" It was at that moment that I lost it. I know she is. I know that she is taking care of Faith. She loved her own children so much and she always was taking care of others children and teaching in the nursery. It was later that I thought, she can take care of my baby and I will take care of hers. We will have to help each other until our families are united for eternity.

The Funeral

Well, we layed my dear friend to rest yesterday. I have to say that was a difficult day. Her family is grieving so much. The still need our continued prayers for peace and strength! As I sat there listening to all of the kind words being said, I glanced up at her husband. He was holding the 8 year old daughter. I have to say that Evette would have been so proud to see him with their little girl. He has been a rock for them to lean on but has been honest about the pain he and they would have to endure. As he cried during moments during the service, his daughter would wrap his arms around his neck and pat his back. I can already see that the love and tenderness Evette would have shown is being shown through her daughter. Thank you all for the prayers and kind words. I am making it day by day. I find myself thinking of her children and husband often. I cannot imagine the pain and confusion they must be experiencing. I pray that God will continue to strenghten them during these times!

Where to go from here

The last few days have been a blur. I find myself being very quiet and reserved. I have been at work but I am just going through the motions. As I read my friend's obituaries, I found myself taken back another time. I just can not get my mind wrapped around the fact that I will never see her. I will never enjoy a humorous conversation with her. I will never play one of her never ending games. I will never hear her laugh or cry. All I will hear is the memories we all had. She was a silent servant. She never saw herself that way. She always wanted more. So, as I prepare for the worst "personal day" in history (that is what I had to take to be gone from school with pay), I am reminded of what is important. I am reminded to be that servant to others and to not take for granted any time we have. No one would have know that a person that seemed so healthy would leave so quickly. Please go and tell those that you love how much they mean to you!

In the blink of an eye...

things can happen that forever change your life. Today has been one of those days. I have written the last few days about my bad days. I sorry to say that today tops them all. I was about to get dressed to go see a new home and then go run errands for my class. That is when we received a phone call that shocked me. A very good friend of mine had passed away. It is actually our preacher's wife: a mother of 3 young children ( 7, 5, and 1 year of age). I cannot explain to you they way I feel. She was the life of a party. I attended a ladies' dinner Thursday and she kept us all laughing. I am still in shock. My heart hurts from the pain. To see her kids cry, it killed me. They would say things about it being hard to not have a mom. PLEASE pray for her husband and kids. They are lost right now. Please pray for all of their families. It is so painful for our entire church. I guess this makes me realize that a job is nothing compared to family! Also, we have to explain this to Todd tonight. He has already had issues with death (see previous post). Please pray for us as we attempt to explain our Lord. He is mighty, He is just and He is in charge. We know He is good and He called her home. We have to lean of His strength and faithfulness during these times!

Thursday...

See Tuesday and Wednesday. Tomorrow is Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday...

Same as Tuesday.

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

I love this song and it pretty much sums up my day! All during break, I had a feeling I would get a new student in my class today. Sure enough, at 8:05, the office buzzed me to come to the office to meet my new student. I did not have text books, desk, supplies, or anything for him. He also increases my age gap by several years and the academic by even more. So all day, I ran like a chicken with my head cut off. On top of all of that, some children had to get use to the school routine again. Oh, well. Tomorrow is a new day. I just pray that I don't get any more new students for a while!