I do not know if anyone even reads this anymore since I never have time to update it. I will write an update to see if anyone responds.
Life has been busy lately. We have had vacation, VBS, swimming lessons, doctors appointments, and daily life and the summer has just begun! I will hit the high parts.
Brad, Todd, Phillip 3, and I went for a couple days to Six Flags. The park closed the first day due to weather but we still had fun going to the movies and playing in the hotel pool. Then, we had a blast at the park all the next day.
Jackson is changing so quickly. He is about 20 pounds and is full of energy. He is pulling to standing and is starting to cruise. His smile will make your heart melt and his laugh makes Todd and I crack up! I think Todd says it best. "I am glad you had a baby because he is really cute."
There are still days that I would love to see my baby girl that we lost. There are still days that I wonder what she looked like and how she would act. I wonder how we would be with a girl. I wished I could buy those adorable dresses! Then, I see these type pictures and realize that, though the loss of Faith was so hard, I cannot imagine my life without my Jackson. I love these boys more than life itself! If Faith had lived, Jackson would not have been here. Lord, please forgive me when I doubt Your plans. Help me to walk in Your ways not mine. Thank you for loving me despite my weaknesses and despite my anger toward You during trying times. Help me to cherish the ones I love and draw me Home someday to see those that have gone before me! In Jesus' Holy and magnificent name, Amen!
