Hurt

Do you ever have those times when your heart just hurts. It hurts so bad words cannot express. My heart is hurting and there is not one thing I can do about it and it is killing me!!

There is a 4th grader at Todd's school who has battled cancer for 4 years. She has a very aggressive form and it has taken over her body. She is now on oxygen all them time and is no longer talking. She is the most amazing little girl and her hours are numbered. Her family is so strong but they are human. They are dying inside because there is not one thing they can do to help her. She has put up a courageous battle but her time to go Home is coming fast. My heart aches constantly for her family. She is only 2 years older than my precious Todd and I cannot imagine life without him. This has rocked my world beneath me. I find myself crying all day mourning for this family and the pain they are enduring! This week was Kelsi week in the community and I fear she will die during her week.

Please join me in prayer. I know that God can change this now. It is not too late for great miracles. But like her mom said, "we have to abide in His plans". If it is her time, please pray for peace. Peace in her family with the decisions they have made, peace in the community, and peace with those 4th grade students who will have to grown up and face the fact that we are fragile and only here for a time. Those innocent girls that were her best friends are going to have a hard time. Please pray for Kelsie( girl), Tammy (Mom), David (dad), and Cody (older brother). They are in great pain and I fear more is to come!

Avril Lavigne - I'm With You Lyrics

I usually listen to christian music. Today, Brad and Todd were gone to soccer and Jackson was asleep. I decided to turn on the Kelly Clarkson station on Pandora. I was really enjoying the music when an Avril Lavigne song came on. I have heard this song before and knew that it had a "bad word" in it and that I liked the beat of the music. However, today I payed attention to the words are was disturbed. Here they are:

Avril Lavigne - I'm With You Lyrics:
"I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening, but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you
(Mmm..)

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
Cause nothing's going right and
Everythings a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you
Yeah, yeah

Oh!
Why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah!

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you"

I was frightened that this is the way our teens feel. Do they often feel this way because this was a popular song among teens. Was this song putting those thoughts in their head. The thought of young kids wanting to know "Isn't anyone trying to find me".

As Todd approaches the teens, I admit I am scared! I was a good kid. Sure, I lied and rebelled at times, but it was minor things. It scares me to think about my sweet boy feeling this way. And then, who are they reaching for? A random stranger?
I am sure the song did not mean God. But, my hope is that if Todd gets lost in his feelings, he will be reaching for someone that is not a stranger but the ultimate comforter, Our Heavenly Father.
Isaiah 49:13
"Shout for Joy, O Heavens;
rejoice, O earth;
burst into song, O mountains!
For the Lord comforts His people
and will have compassion on His afflicted ones."