Luke's birth story

I said that I would post the story of Luke's birth. I will divide it into 2 parts due to the length of the story.

On January 13th, I had a normal doctors visit. After a girl from high school losing a baby at 38 weeks, I was a little more in tune to the movement of the baby. I thought his movements seemed far less, though they were still in the normal number. As I drove to the dr., I prayed that if this was something to be concerned about the doctor would pay attention and if things were fine, he would ignore it. I did my typical pee in the cup, weight check, and blood pressure check. Things were all fine. They listened to the heartbeat and it sounded fine. I explained the movement and he decided to send me over to the hospital for a non-stress test. I got in the car and called Brad and my mom and told them. Brad was going to come but I felt it would be short lived so I convinced him to stay. Again, on the way I prayed for clear direction and peace of mind. I got into the hospital room at 10:30. The nurse began to ask me questions and hook me up to the monitors. Within minutes, I began to feel very hot and dizzy. I thought it was because I had not eaten breakfast because I felt sick. As I laid there, I got worse. My hearing started to go away and I was having a hard time to understanding what she was asking. Then, another nurse came in and said I didn't look so good and to roll to my side. I asked what side and she said it didn't matter so I chose my right. She said try the other side. They then put oxygen on my face. i looked over and saw that Luke's heart rate had gone from the 140's to 90 in a matter of seconds. It quickly rebounded once I was on my side and had oxygen. It was then that they told me I would be having a baby. I was taken down the hall and had papers in my face to sign about the epidural and the procedure. Between IV sticks and paper signing, I sent Brad a text saying to come to the hospital. I did not write that they were delivering b/c I didn't have time. After a few minutes, they had me call him to see how much longer b/c they were going to do it without him if he didn't get there quickly. I called and he had not left b/c he thought he had time to pass off responsibilities before he left. He made it to the hospital and they put scrubs on he and wheeled me out. The delivery itself was not any different. However, he was born at 11:48. So in an hour and 15 minutes I went from a non-stress test to having my son born.

Well, there is the first part of the birth. I have so much to write about NICU and how he got there but I will save that for later. I learned to be more prepared if I were to ever have another baby, which we don't plan on it! We didn't have the car seat in the car or the house finished. I just thought I had a little more time.

My 3rd little blessing!

I am going to write soon about Luke's dramatic entrance to this world. So many things to talk about and yet I am getting no sleep.

Hurting

I have to say that my heart is hurting tonight. I want my baby home so badly it makes me sick. I am tired of driving 2 hours or more a day to go to the hospital. I don't like that they know my face on the NICU camera to get into the unit. I don't like that my other 2 boys are suffering because I am gone and that Brad is having to work late at night because we are gone so much of the day. I JUST DON"T LIKE IT!!! However, I am drawn to this scripture:
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time."
1 Peter 5:6

I know that His hand is mighty and that he will deliver me from the nightmare it will just be in His time. So in the meantime, I will cling to His promises and do the best I can to trust in Him!

Oh so hard

As I begin writing it is almost 1:30 am and I should be asleep but I just can't sleep. I have so much on my mind that I can't rest. I am having such a hard time not being able to hold Luke yet. He is so adorable and I want to be able to hold him and give him those loving hugs and kisses that Todd and Jackson got but I can't. I know that God is in control of this situation and I know that Luke is in His care. I also have complete faith that God will heal my baby but it just doesn't seem fast enough. I am working on that. I can't wait to see Luke's personality. I know he was our little gift from God. Please continue to pray for that healing and pray for me and those after pregnancy hormones that are going crazy! Here is my sweet baby!