Bucket List

I am obviously behind in my movie watching. The movie Bucket List is not a new movie but I just watched it last night. I cried like a baby. That is mainly because my friend that passed away was planning on seeing this movie. It reminded me of her but I felt like it was speaking to me as well.

I am going to write something that very few people know but will explain why this movie touched me. Several months after the death of my friend (remember the minister's wife that left 3 young children behind) I had been praying that night and explaining to God that I still just didn't get why she died. She was crucial to our church and her family. That night, I had the most amazing dream of my life. I met her in my dreams. She hugged me, as she normally would. We sat and talked. She asked about things like her kids, her husband, and the church. We had the most amazing conversation. She finally stood up and said she had to go. I told her I needed to know why she had to die. She grabbed my hand and stated that she had asked that when she first met Christ. She went on to say that it was because she was about to be very sick. For those of us that know her, that would have killed her. She was not one to take time for herself or let others wait on her. As she got ready to leave, she hugged me and said that God had spared her and her family from an illness. Just like that she was gone. When I awoke, I felt as though she had really been right there. I even looked around to make sure I was at home and not in a casket somewhere!

As I watched this movie last night, it brought back that conversation. I have never had a dream like that before. I guess that is why this movie was hard to watch. As I went to bed, I could not get this out of my mind. So, as I laid down, I cried tears. Tears of sadness for my friend that I miss daily and tears of gratefulness for protecting her.